Trying

Why is it that every time
I convince myself
I'm over you and don't miss you
but you do something totally
adorable and sweet and make 
I fall for you all over again :\

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Have you ever stopped to wonder
did you wonder why you stopped?
can you fix it, is it broken
is it now forever lost?
is it sitting at the bottom
of your heart somewhere.

Instead
can you hear it, constantly
softly slamming in your head.
Have you seen it, can you smell it?

Did you taste the salted time
fragile pieces to recover
best we leave it all behind.
 
I don’t know now
so I wonder
tell me something
I don’t know
is it better?
 
Damn I miss you
Yes, I know, I know, I know.
It’s so simple, our perspective
but I don’t believe my ears
this I’m saying, aint it heavy
feel it breathing as it nears.
coming closer, I am with you.

Welcome we don’t need to be
this is nothing worth comparing
It’s just you and me.

p/s: I miss you 

[ but I'm trying don't care anymore ]

Relax

Wow..
Finally I finish my final paper
Hohohohoho.. =)

excited mood cant describe by any words.

Quotes: *Good luck to US =)*

It make me sweet dream yesterday night
*weeeeeeteeeeeheeeee* 

I miss someone ♥

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Clubbing Time ♥
Tonight is ladies night.
but this also my first time go clubbing
without clubbing feel =.=''
Ahem~ maybe is my own problem
Everyone inside the club retard
nobody want to move  also ==
everybody like orang tua 
slow motion pulak =.=''


*make me no clubbing feel*

I like this pic so much ♥
Chee Meng be my partner tonight =)

=.='' They ask me 
It this I be the ad toothpaste star inside this pic? 
LOL! definitely NO!
I just smile but show my tooth too =)

Heineken Heineken Heineken ♥
Attention please:

*I'm not drink kaki*  
*cover face*
Ngek ngek ngek =p
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Finally Mcd time ♥
but but but 
tonight I control myself 
don't let the *evil sundae* lure me!!
Hahahahahaha. finally I success =)

Because I felt I getting fat recently
maybe cause last few week 
my meal time not steady
And CNY is coming soon =)
*excited excited*

=================================================
Apologize 
Sorry sorry
maybe I been hurt your heart
Urm...
That because I din tell the truth to you


Sorry about that
Maybe you're not even understand my feeling
I get hurt deeply because 
*trustful easily among friend*
 
If someday,
I voluntarily tell my top secret to you
Exactly,  
You're my top good friend started that day.=)

Hope you can understand.

p/s: *trustful*... I've learnt a lot about this word.

[ Expecting (= ]

Nightmare

I don't lose sleep over.   
what I have done or have nightmares about it. :\ 

I had a nightmares yesterday night

Since I thought will have a sweet dream

but everything just turn over :\

I felt freaking scared after I woke up

I keep sweat =.=''

Maybe is because I worry 

what I was dream

it will become the true :|

DON'T !!! 

please ... ~ 

*Intrapersonal with myself* 

Terrible =.=ll

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No appetite today :\

just eat apple and some biscuit

Haiz .... What a sad day ?

Maybe is on holiday 

or CNY mode ...

NO MOOD study at all ==''

but don't hope to resit

Well ~ Is the time continue my revision :)

PR notes . I'm coming to eat u now .

p/s: Awwwwwww~~~~ Disgusting notes :(

[ Forget about nightmares ]

Okay :)

Start to feel the emptiness

and everything I'm gonna miss

I know, that I can't hide. 

All this time is passing by 

I think it's time to just move on... :|

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Chinese paper today 

It was a bad paper for me

Well ~ what i can say

I just do the essay part

And let those short ques empty :\

Started to worry about

maybe I'll be the first person

fail in Chinese subject  :\

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Dye my hair today

*teeeweeeeeee*

but not satisfy T_T

I cant dye the color that i expect

purple red---->black :\

Didn't have any change so

seem I cheated by that saloon

NO WAY!! I wont easily surrender

I'll return back that saloon

complain about the color at Wed

This is my principle as well :)

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Tomorrow will be my last PR paper

Urm Urm Urm

haven't touch the notes yet :\

Lazy ~ but nobody motivated me 

Sigh.............. :|

Just hope tomorrow paper wont so hard

easily let me pass

that I hope God' grant to me :)

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Since now I want appreciate my friend
they always concern and help me
when I needed them :)
Moon, Yumi, DK, Tham, Lin Wei, 
Yan, Koh,Victor, JunHao 

Thanks thanks thanks 


And I get a new friend 
Fishy ~~ muackss
a naive cute gal :)
A friend who share many story with me =D
*(n_n)*

Freakin worry :\
A stuff about me and someone
Don't hope that will happen 
just let it natural


"We should believe fate."
quote from Moon :)


p/s: KL' trip, I'm coming =]

[ Be grateful ]

Words

Simple words
can make me heartache
But someone, 

your silence kills me,
makes me cry.
:/ 

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I really angry angry angry someone
Did someone know, you're so

brainless
annoying  
cowardly
..............

I hate you push me to others
some more still said those words
brainless!!
Did someone, you know
when I see those f*cking msg 
that you sending to me
I really get anger to you

You ask me go bla bla bla to others
Issit you brainless?
Herrrrzzz....
I get your msg your words
hurt me deeply
really ~ really ~

I hate you push me to others
I know you not think like that way
but you just pretend don't care only
Some more still want act laugh over there
=.=''

YOU BRAINLESS.
YOU ANNOYING.
YOU COWARDLY.

What you also don't want to say it out
all also hide inside your heart :\
I don't even understand you.


Now I never wanna see you
never wanna feel you
ever wanna hear you
can't stand you
don't need you.


p/s: I am not goods :\

[ You're so yesterday )= ]

Sundae :)

Tooth Fairy

Today I've watch it.
Quite fun and laughable 
but seem after I've watch it
I was not able happy that I imagine :(

But anyway
Thankyou a friend for accompany
Friend, yours gentle make me felt proud
thanks god let me know you
(n_n)
and yours popcorn and coke :)

Thanks ♥

Yummy yummy ♥
Mom bought chocolate sundae to me
Nice! Nice! Nice!
 

Chocolate sundae

you're the one who always make me happy
and the only can cure my sadness
every time every moment

I ♥ You

p/s : sundae :)

[my only love ♥]

Bad Day :(

Maybe I am not supposed to be over him.
I mean how many time i've tried.
Maybe theres a reason its not working.

=================================================

Today is was a bad bad day for me
I hate 22/1/2009
:(

Wanna apologize to a friend here
Sorry, XX "sista"
I know that is my fault
I should ask permission your guys 
before I do something.

Sorry Sorry Sorry~

wont happen next time
And I know XX "sista"
U're the friend that concern me always
and help us plan everything
I'll appreciate it.
Anyways,
Thanks, XX "sista".

================================================

Why I wanna pretend nothing front of someone
since I get someone, u hurt me again
Maybe u even know
what u talking to me just now

already been hurt me deeply

Okay. Fine.
Nothing I can say to someone

but why i some more still want

pretend nothing in front of u...

tell me why
tell me why 
I feel that I am so stupid
Really why I been so silly ?

Fine. I wont force people
do something that he/she dislike
And I really feel disappointed to someone

Someone, why u so cowardly?
Why u just don't want told me 
actually what u want?
Why u just hide everything 
and put inside your heart?

I don't even understand u
Sometimes I really rather u told me everything
better u hide everything since I asking u :(

Maybe sometimes just because 
what u saying to me
Or even what tone u using talk to me

That already can been hurt me
Once again u hurting me
Did u know that? =(


p/s: Can i ignore and forgot everything?

[ Someone, YOU even know that ): ]

Fail :(

Learn what doesn't work first
Then see how you can make it better
*Remind myself*

====================================================Finally today I cant bear anymore
I need talk about my final exam ==
Damn disappointed to myself
Really ~ really ~ really ~

Yesterday is my IT resit paper
When I get the question paper
I regret ~ I blame myself ~

Why I don't read those notes earlier
If not I sure can answer all :(


Well ~
I just keep on blame myself ~
blame GOD ~ blame IT ~ =(
Nothing else I can say.
Just prepare to resit again
*FOR SURE*

Today turn on Mass Com resit paper
same situation happen ==ll

I get the ques paper
but i pass up the empty answer booklet =(


All ques are same as 
what lecturer gave us tips before
But why even gave tips
I still very stupid

still can't answer the ques

"REALLY DAMN 7 SEI"

I know I must resit this 2 sub again
*FOR SURE*
but I worry next time when I resit
no more tips like this time
I know I wont lucky all the time :(


Regret ~ regret ~ regret ~
keep appear in my mind 
but seem useless
All already pass up
the truth already been true 


Now what can I do?
Urm urm urm
I think I should put more effort 
to my next 2 sub onward

Just hopefully I can pass all sub 
that i taken in this sem
=(


p/s: study mode come come :)

[ Anti FACEBOOK =p ]

Alone

"You are not alone
I am here with you
Although I try to far away from you
But I think I cant do that 
How sad? :(

You are not alone
I am here with you
And all yours lovely friends
You’re always in my heart

Lastly

I wanna told someone

You are not alone"

Just remember that

someone, you are not alone in this world. 

Anything happen someone, 

you still got me and your friends 

that love you and cherish you… 

Remember to love and cherish them back…

p/s: Before they forever gone…  =p

[♥]

Friend

                                                              

This is for you, my best friend.
Who can relate to me like no other
Who I can laugh with to no extents,
Who I can cry too when times are tough,
Who can help me with the problems of my life.

Never have you turned your back on me
Or told me I wasn't good enough
Or let me down.

I don't think you know what that means to me
You have went through so much pain and you still have time
For me.
And I love you for listening even when inside YOU are dying
And I look up too you because you are strong,
and caring
and beautiful.
Even though you don't think you are.

And I hope you know that I am always here
To listen to you laugh and cry and help
In all the ways that I can
And I will try to be at least half the friend you are
To me. 

I hope you know I would not be the person I am today with out you.
My best friend.

p/s: Even I hurt you before, but I still can get your forgiveness.Thanks :)

[ Cherish (: ]

Confuse

Confuse Love

I been the gal inside :\
How silly? 

I know I should forget
but since today
my friend share with me something

Ahem~
Should I believe 
what my friend told me that 
Confuse .. confuse .. =\

I just knowing that 

Single = Simple
Couple = Trouble
Triangle = Terrible

 
p/s : what can i do ? :\

[ Lost myself /: ]

Triangle

Love the One You're With!

Songs for a love triangle :\

I’m going to insane
My mind keep on racing with myself :\

Conclusion:

I want friends my lovely friends
I know that should I chasing :)

Many thoughts of
me and someone 

Life is so complicated simplistic
When someone is near
Not a doubt a
Worry or a fear :\
But when someone’s
Around all I hear
Is a strange in my ear.

As I wait
I soon wait Love

perhaps from someone

My heart is slowly
is trying on the mend 

How hurt? :(

I’m out of my mind
And I can read it
On everyone’s face
I need to get someone
Off of my mind.

So that I can search
And try to find other

that can entertain me

same as someone

I need to move on
And quit looking back

Far away from someone

How sad? :'(

Finally

I know I need to pull my self
together and get back on track

Be the one that i want.

p/s : Isn't quit is the better way? :\

[Guiltily ME /:]

yes?no?maybe

what I get in my mind
A lot of question marks
to someone
to myself

I promise myself
but seem I can't do that
someone
u're annoying =.=''

Friendship and Love
definitely
I don't how to make decision
And
please don't force me >.<
*my evil always forcing me*

Sigh............... =(
but everyday should be a good good day

My 2 lovely friend and Me
still can be good friend like before :)
*my angel told me that*

Today.
I feel.
someone's comfortable again :)
that truth always

Someone meet my mom
how sweet =]
they greet sb.
*purposely meet*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA =p


p/s: forget=/remember

[ anonymous someone (: ]

Curse

I curse those CB thief
which stolen my brother laptop
and his lovely hp

Hope everything will be alright
since you still have our family
support and encourage


p/s: tamadun sure die =.=''

[ everthings will be fine :( ]

Thanks♥

Urm Urm Urm.....
how i start wrote?
well~ I realize I did wrong
from last week I thk ==

what I did wrong?
urm urm............
a serious case ==

I regret what I done
to my 2 lovely frens
SORRY :(
I apologize to them
since I realize I did wrong
and I should be honest to them :(
*guilty face*

Erm...................
Finally I decided tell the truth
since everything still timely ==
And I know this only the better way
to solve all the problem :(

Although my 2 lovely frens
they didn't blame me
still say nevermind to me
I get them forgiveness :)
*tear drop*

Thank u2 so much♥♥

Since I feel upset
I only realize around me actually
have many frens are concern to me always :)
firstly, I want thanks to

Victor Lim
U are the friend was console me always
give support me always
feel so luckily I can know you in my life
when I need you
I know u will always beside me :)

Sista DK and LinWei
Urm urm urm
what I can say to u2 funny guys
well~ I just can say
I will remember how u2 console me
let me find back myself
*although I didn't tell u2 what happen actually*
Anyway thanks :)

Ricky
You are my big gor gor
Felt so happy since I chat with u
remember our promise ya
like kinda garden kids
drink milk at westlake :D

Choo Wai Meng!!!
Hahahaha..
You are my best best fren in my life
every time when I have any unhappy
the only one u console me
lead me and help me solve all the problem
thankyou so much so much
I will cherish you *

Lastly
erm. someone
I know you realize im unhappy
emo-ing + moody
but u just didnt say it out
and ask me what happen actually
erm. but thanks u accompany me tonite :)
*although not only u there* =.=''

I promise myself
I wont hide any truth start frm today
especially to my 2 lovely frens anymore

Erm
For my those my jimui
seeying,ah ma and yy
sorry for that when I upset
I didnt find u3 :(
But instead I know u3 will keep view my blog
and love me all the time <3
*appreciate*


p/s: Love always is trouble =.=

[ I cherish you all ]

Get Lost =p

Ehem :D
finally I been recover today
seem yestday I still bad mood :(

Finally someone also didn't know what happen
but luckily someone still know find me
ask me take k and eat =.=''
since someone know I bad mood yestday
no appetite so din eat for whole day :(

When someone ask me eat something
I didn't give any replying
since I don't know how to facing someone :\
But I know I still have to give reply
coz no reason I suddenly emo-ing ==

Haiz.....
I should prepare my mood to go my final soon
I should forget everything
especially someone ==ll
annoying~

Opps.
A fren told me someone become my VVIP
but how come I didn't realise that :|
shit~ I should pull down
someone identity from my heart ==ll
someone cant be my VVIP

Amitabha...................................
Amen...............................
Allah......................................
Let me forget everything about someone :|
seem I intrapersonal to myself :X

Don't care anymore about someone
I want pull down someone's identity
I want!! I need!! I should!!! =.=||
I better put more effort to my studies
at least my result will give some reward
or console to myself!!! :@

p/s: Me is me,someone is someone!!

[Get lost, someone =p]

Lies

A lies can hurt people's heart
since I just know something
that can totally hurt my heart
deeply~deeply~deeply~
:(

I get cheated by someone
someone didn't told me the truth
why? why? why?
why someone wanna cheat me?

I don't understand
I can't imagine
someone hurt me deeply :(
maybe someone thought that
cheating me better than I know the truth

I was nothing to say anymore
I wouldn't chase and ask for more
since now someone still don't know
I already know that :(

Maybe I shouldn't angry with someone
because someone also have own privacy
someone doesn't to told me the truth
might be have someone's own reason
and also have freedom and choice
to decided telling me :(

I wouldn't angry to someone
since I know im not enough qualified :(


p/s: YOURS lies make me down down down.

[heart broke ): ]

Truth

Because of someone
totally make me no mood
for whole day!!!
I never never know that
someone have this big influence
can affect my mood
I hate someone!

Finally i cant bear anymore
And I decided to ask someone
get the answer
get the truth

How sad am I?
after i know the truth
I realize that someone really cheating me
someone really didn't tell me the truth
but someone still don't know
I already know the truth :(

At least finally someone tell me the truth
Izzit good for me?
Izzit I should happy because someone telling me the truth?
What should I do?
Angry?Pretend nothing happen? :(

After get the truth
I didn't say anything
Didn't give any reply
Maybe that is what can I do
to facing someone

Maybe now someone sure
as me as annoyed
Don't know what happen on me
How come I become furious
without any reason

Feel freaking sad mode right now
because although now someone already know i angry
but I still didn't get any message from someone
even a sorry message
I also didn't get................................ =(
*tear drop*

p/s: someone even even know that.

[ I rather than don't know everything ): ]

Empty

Room empty
Heart empty
Brain empty
I hate this :(

didn't talking more than 24hours =.=''
since from yesterday until just now
nobody in my house
just stay alone in room

cant study at all
thought back kampar early
at least i can study
but obviously..........
CANT!!!!! =(
my brain clog full of SHIT =.=''

======================================

I hate people come disturb my life
since i far away from u last time
I hate that u follow what im doing
whatever stuff about me

why u always appear front of me?
Izzit u feel lonely?
U can go join in other people's life
but I beg u
can u just far away from me
from my life
from my sight
from my friends??

I dislike u
since now i m so happy
with my further frens
I don't hope u to damage it again
U just far away
Can u do that?

Well~
Don't try to challenge me
You are not qualified do that
but anyway
I still hope that our relationship
wouldn't be like that in the end
since now i still as u as friend.

======================================

Turn me woke someone up
since someone sleep so many hours
I do not allow people sleep more than me
especially is someone
ngek ngek ngek~~
*devil laugh*

send a full of "WAKE UP" message to someone
sure someone will get shocked
And I know that someone
sure wake up and reply me one
Hahahhahahaha....
Am I clever,someone? :D
*(n_n)*

maybe really just only my msg can woke someone up
because since just now
someone's fren try to msg someone
but didn't get any reply
Instead when I just send
so fast can get reply

No matter..................................
since maybe Im too important
for someone right now
(^.^)

p/s: our identity is different

[ITOU ♥]

100110

Only realize the date of today
100110 :)
wake up early today
since yesterday i already promise mom
I'll wake up take breakfast w/dad

Hahahahahhaha..
actually is I also learn from someone
since someone also need wake up early
act guai guai accompany parents :)

Opps..................................
A friend asking me
who is "someone" actually? n_n
some more ask me
izzit im falling in love???
Awwwwwwwww~~~~

============Skipped answering==============

Girls sixth sense are always accurate
Izzit true??
A friend told me that exactly true
but I think im a guy
since my sixth sense never accurate once time =.=''
hahahahhahaha=p

Boring==
will stay kampar till 27th Jan
mean some more 17days have to stay alone
sigh........................
Final final final exam

If I din do any revision
before I going to sit my final
Can I pass all my sub
included my resit sub??
I hope so~
That why i learn from someone
always pray for the god :)

I know God wouldn't help
those children are lazy =.=''
"gain without any work"
wont happen on me :(
But I'll just always

[pray for the GOD]

sweet day ;)

A morning call + msg wake me up today
opps............
should say a afternoon call =.=''
since the time we wake up
already 2pm ==
receive from someone
~~sweet ;)

Hang out whole day
sigh.....................................
din do revision again =.=

go somewhere with someone
sesak people
sesak jalan ==
But luckily someone always beside me
lead me always
feel comfortable :)

buy something to my mom
someone help me research around
and help me choose which one is nice finally :)
thanks =)

congratulation to someone
because successful someone's opponent
in front of me :)
74 vs 50
yeah.....................................^^V

"Don't miss to u"
"Don't dream to u too"
"But try to see more your face"
n_n

Ask me prepare to nightmare tonight
is what that someone told me just now

our secret code
no one will understand
just me and u know ;)

Reason--------------------------->

[we spend long time together (: ♥]

Avatar

^^V
Finally i watch youuuuu
Avatar~Nice~
I know is too late and outdated jor
since everyone also watch it
but nevermind~~
at least i can watch it finally...
*satisfied face*

wake up at 2pm =.=
thought can do revision
but
finally once i open book
i felt sleepy and asleep =.=
f*ck
what hell im going to do
I'm useless
sigh......................

Exam really is around the corner
since everyone also wrote him/her blog about exam
revision.....study.......exam.....manage time........
but but but
*shake head* to myself
even how to go sit my all exam paper
i also don't know ==

feel satisfy
because finally i can eat chocolate sundae =)
since i know sundae will make me FAT
but i don't care~
I just want to eat..............
and
Ehem......

p/s:
Wouldn't forget what happen tonight
since something make me
thinking and sweet dream =)

Ehem....
Is the time go sleep

[miss&dream♥]

7600days

Skip class whole day
time to wake up already 330pm =.=
I know that is over
but i just don't want + no mood to study
i rather skip class ;)

today is me 7600days single day
*clap hand*
Yeah~
I been single for 7600days

Never have a men come into my life
urm.........urm...........
ever my requirement setting for my dream man
is too high? they hard to achieve what i want?
or is my problem? face problem?
Anyway, I don't think so~
Hahahahhahaha =p

Actually sometimes i also hope
a men will come into my life
he change my life
change my attitude
change my habit
change my everything
*what a stupid wish*

But since 2010's
Me me me...... already 21years old =.=
those stupid+silly+childish wishes
I wouldn't let its appear in my mind again
because like what i post to facebook today

"Don't find love, let love find you.
That's why it's called falling in love
because you don't force yourself to fall
you just fall"

I wont find love anymore
*disappointed face*
sigh.........
because I just will
waiting ..........
and

[let LOVE find me (: ]

sick >.<

keep sneeze after back from gym
maybe is the time turn me fall sick pulak >.<
i think so~
few days not enough time to sleep
sure get sick

sneezing non stop
very suffer
between exam is around the corner
i never prepare yet
what should i do?
haiz..

hope i can recover faster
and
pass all my sub ;)

[wish can be true]

Song (;

《Wedding dress》
Some say it’s not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you’re here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

《一秒也好》
我关上了门 最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生 把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神 才能让失去你变得更完整
窗外的街灯 还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的嘆息成全了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛 才发现 失去了爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来离去是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀 原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯 翻开了城市中的心门
我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷
在你的回忆里狂奔 才发现 失去了爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来离去是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀 原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱 就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少 我都想要

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来离去是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待